Monday, September 21, 2009

It has to stop.

I’ve always believed that ‘Good things happen to good people’ and that ‘Bad things happen to bad people’. So accordingly, if bad things start happening to you, that means, you are a stupid bad person(hence proved) .
It seems I am a very bad person. Or maybe, I’ve done bad things, mean things due which I’m getting the punishment that I apparently deserve.

Now you’ll ask me why am I so frustrated with life and more importantly why am I making you read it? The answer is because I don’t care. I don’t care about what’s right and what’s wrong, what I’m doing and what I should be doing, what I want and what I get. But don’t you worry, most of the things that are frustrating me right now can’t be blogged about because of the new-found ‘popularity’ of my blog.

The one little thing that I can say, is that my phone got stolen today. I missed it for like three minutes and wham! Some loser, some idiot girl who shops at pantaloons, has enough money to buy a one thousand rupee shirt (meaning she was NOT some food-deprived abused human who deserved my phone more than me), couldn’t resist to grab the phone and flee. You wait, she’ll get what she deserves. Sooner than she can even imagine.

Among the unspeakable things, lets just say ‘friendship’ is highly overrated. And ‘hard work’ is also extremely overrated and meaningless and it almost never pays. And that comfortable and numb cant be used in the same sentence without a ‘not’.

So here’s a final goodbye to my dear phone.It stood by me at all times, it was there whenever I needed someone, it was my bridge to the world. It was a very very special phone, bought on a very special day, for a very special reason. It meant a lot to me. But like I’ve survived these last few days, losing so much else, I guess I’ll have to survive losing you too.

Saturday, September 12, 2009


Sometimes,I look back at the last few years of my life, and wonder what went wrong. The place where I am today, I never expected to be here. To tell you the truth, I did not even expect to be the person, I am now.
I expected much less.
Maybe that's the reason why I'm happy :)

By the way, I'm going through the whole I-think-I'm-gonna-block-this-blog phase. Believe it or not, this blog suddenly has too many readers (read lurkers)and I'm not sure I'm very comfortable with that.
You know, I’ve always read other blogs, where the bloggers acknowledge these secret readers of theirs. I never felt the need because I thought I didn’t have any readers apart from those who had been coaxed by me to read :P

However, recently, I’ve sort of abandoned giving my blog undue publicity *ahem* . And rather recently so many people have told me that they know stuff because they’ve read my blog and I’m like- “You read my blog?! But u never comment? I had no idea that u do”..
Like the time when I heard that this senior of mine who I’ve never spoken to properly(hell, I didn’t know he even knew my name) recommended my blog to a friend of mine and when she told me I was like- Waaat? Really? He knows me then? From where did he get the link?? But he never ever even acknowledges me when we cross each other.
So anyway, the point is, its flattering that people keep a tab on the blog and all but sometimes it really freaks me out. I mean hello, I don’t even know this person properly and he know SO much about me. I used to think that my Statcounter was counting wrong numbers but it seems its not.
Many times I think I should block this blog or remove its link from places.. I don’t know.. I write about my life and I’m not too ambiguous about it either. I’m not an anonymous blogger, I use my real name.If u know me and my friends, you’ll know exactly who or what I’m talking about. That’s what I write about. Me. My friends. My life.
So is it ok to share it with absolute strangers? And specially strangers, who don’t want to share their opinion or even say a ‘hi’ maybe? Strangers, who are so much interested in your life but you have no clue whatsoever about their intentions? Its a lil too spooky, dont u think??

Not just spooky, its downright scary .
But then, I guess this is a question every blogger faces and yet we keep on blogging. Because it feels so good.

So lets just say, if u happen to drop by n the link to this blog doesn’t work.. Maybe I’ve changed my answer about the aforementioned question.
And to my silent readers, it never hurts to say hello, does it?