Five Year Plans.

Sometimes, when people hear that i'm doing a five-year degree course, they go like :O
lol..of course, five years seems like a long time and it definitely is, but to tell you the truth, life is different on the other side. Other side of the fifth semester that is. Once you finish half of your course, everything seems different. Like its all going to end soon. Like nothing matters anymore coz its not going to last long enough anyway. 

Sixth semester has been tough. Very tough. I dont remember working so hard ever. Ever. Still, its not been enough. All thanks to D, our Darling Dracula professor. I could write a whole book on him. But i'm not going to :P

Recently, a lot many people seem to be very interested in my love-life. My non-existent love-life that is. Sigh. I know i've been too choosy, i know i've broken some hearts, i know i've been aloof, but i cant help it. Its just that i dont think any of them was (is) worth the trouble. heh. As soon as i find someone who makes me wanna break my own rules, i'll say yes. (There you go, Tam n Aqua, this is your answer, now stop annoying me, will ya?)

So yes, coming back to the main issue, i dont mind doing a five-year graduation course. Even though some my friends will be graduating this year itself (why is Bcom just a three-year thing? why? why?) and they will finish their masters(!!) by the time i complete my bachelors course, i still want to study further. Hopefully i'll do that and have a master's degree right after B.arch. Wow. That means four more years of college. Yikes. Thats long enough, i guess.

Okhay and will someone tell me the deal with the CAT exams in India? Thank GOD i don't want to do MBA. I mean what the hell? One of my first cousins got a 96 percentile n she was a lil unhappy and i was like- haan fine there still are 4 percent people above her. Another cousin got a 99 percentile and STILL he was unhappy with his result.
WHAT is wrong with the world?! Where did the 'healthy' competition and stuff go? This fat, ugly and gross competition makes me want to hit something. Or someone. Yea, something like that.

Moving On.

The worst thing about time is that it stops for none. And that, is the best thing about it .
And time is the greatest healer.
So here i am, looking for a fresh start. So far, things have been a lil bleak. Many unfortunate incidents have happened in the last thirteen days. But, life doesn't stop either, does it?
M is fine now, much better. He has been very brave throughout the whole ordeal and i'm so proud of him. We are trying to move on. Really.
Some good news by the way. My exams have finally gotten over. God, they were on for like ages!
I couldn't meet so many people who had come to town during the vacations because i was having these stupid exams :( sorry :(
However, my submissions arent over yet. As in, they should have been over a long time back but seriously this is the toughest thing that i have ever done. Our 'Main Design' (mD) this semester is like a city centre kinda thing with an Auditorium and Cinema hall. Sigh. Seriously, toughest mD everrrrr!
I mean, i was told 'Working Drawing' (wD) was the scariest subject but no.. thats not true.. Yea, wD does take a LOT of hard work, i agree. I've had to repeat a particular sheet five times (not a joke) but atleast it was approachable and achieveable. And i'm kinda scared of the wD professor too. hehe. Not in a bad way though. Yea, i dont think 'scared' is the right word. I'm so in awe of him actually. He's like this super sharp scorpio and he's so good at what he does and i admire him so much and i dont want to let him down n all (same sunsign and stuff :P ) and thats probably why i get nervous around him. I think he knows i'm not dumb but i guess he is still trying to figure out why i act like an idiot when he's around. :|
Trust me, thats what i want to find out too.
So yes, inspite of all this, wD submissions got over way back in december and mD submissions are no where near completion. I think we have our sixth sem registrations from next week. I have no idea how and when i shall finish my mD submissions. *reads the previous line again and starts sulking*
Arrgghh.. I've studied so hard this semester. I want a break. I want a holiday. I want to have fun (without feeling guilty this time). I want to shop. I want to read the books (that are kept on that shelf, books that i've bought sucha long time back but havent had the good fortune of reading them yet. Inner Nerd says 'hi' to everyone.).I want out.
*sheepish grin*
I want fifth semester to end. I want sixth semester to start.

That Fuzzy Feeling.

This is my 50th post and i'm very happy about it :P

Have you ever experienced that weird feeling, when you really really want something to happen and you keep hoping and praying for it to happen and when it does, you dont want it anymore?
Sheesh.
Its not a very nice feeling really.

When people ask me, "Hi, whats up?",( apart from wanting to say "God / sky / ceiling / me" type stuff), I sometimes really want to say, "Do you really want to know?" I mean, really, do u REALLY want to know about it? *Glares hard*
So my usual answer is "Nothin much". However, dont be fooled by this. Fortunately (or is it unfortunate?) there is always so much happening around me, I usually dont know what to say, where to start.
This really makes me miss my introvert days.

So the most important thing thats happened is that I've suddenly come to 3rd year. Thats like a big whoooops in my heart when i think about it. Thing is, since we were in first year, our seniors (God bless them all :P) used to say "Wait till you come to third year. Most difficult year of your entire life. You'll regret everything in your life"...and they used to go on..and on...and on..........
So, basically its been pretty hyped n all. I'm shit scared, coz life has been pretty difficult till here and i dont know how much more i can take.



Anyway,next new thing is, my department has shifted to the main campus. We had two campuses, one had the archi block and the hostels and the other was the main campus where all the other depts functioned. We were pretty surprised with the shifting coz we didn't think it would ever happen. But it did. And its a good thing. Our new building is ultra cool and once it'll be completed, it'll be the best block of our college (ha!). *ahem*
And the most weird part about this is, i miss my old block SOOOO much.. i mean i never would have thought I'd get so attached to that place, to THAT building of all things..you have to see it once and only then will you understand what I'm talking about.. the new block is like the complete opposite of our old block.. its so airy and pretty and scenic and has an AWESOME view.. i swear the view is breathtaking from some places.. its so weird to have something so good and yet miss something that was so ordinary, yet had that 'sense-of-belonging' kinda feel to it.
I'll miss the annual flood of the studios due to heavy rain (dont ask), the climbing out of the window to escape the torture (yes it used to happen), a particular bonfire in April 08 , our much dreamed about Fourth year studio (which we never got to study in, coz of the shifting..waaaaaahhhh *sobs n sobs n sobs* ), the newly built aquarium-type chamber for our beloved new HOD (shhhh..i'm being nice and not calling it a bathroom see.. hmph.. the colors, the walls, the carpet..for which we had to 'remove' our shoes before entering..gawd i'm gonna miss that :P), the library (which had a record of being re-arranged a million times),the looooong corridor where the lights were mostly off n we used to keep guessing who's coming from the entrance.. ( "Who's that? Is he a teacher? naaaa..too thin..Is he a junior? heheh..nope..omg.. Is he a senior? Get inside the studio fasttt") omg everything. The new building is so properly lighted n ventilated that you can see who's coming from a mile away. sheesh.

Oh n by the way, i was going through my old posts and came across a particular one in which i have described how i wasted my third semester and how "my insincerity towards studies had stooped to unimaginable levels". Apparently it wasn't so. My 3rd sem results came out recently (very late, yea..some strike at my stupid university) and guess what? I stood first in not only my class but also my university. Well, i guess I'm not as bad as i think :P .

There are many other things that i have to talk about but i guess that'll have to wait till my next post.

Btw,There's something more..I'm thinking of blocking this blog too.. too many lurkers.. but more on that later.

DON’T creep me out? Please?

Ok I can’t understand why people watch horror movies? NO, wait... I can’t understand why people MAKE horror movies???

I mean??? What is your bloody logic? U tell me Adrenalin rush... I tell u Bull shit. Hmph. Why do u want to complicate your already complicated and stressful life?? Movies are meant for entertainment, NOT for harassment.
So my point is: this is what I think and the reason why I don’t watch horror movies. Ever. If u don’t agree with me...too bad... please keep creeping yourself out. Just keep me away ok. The only horror movie I had technically seen in the theater was Bhoot, which I dint quite see because I had my eyes and ears covered by some helpful devices gifted to me by god- my hands. I only opened them when I had confirmed that it was day again and it would be perhaps a lil watch-able.
*Ahem* This story has been narrated time n again to anyone and everyone who know me. Somehow my batch mates, my so-called best friends Sim and I (henceforth to be referred as Aqua) came to know bout it. U see Sim n aqua claim to be my well wishers in all times but after yesterday, I beg to differ. So they all decided to go to some crazy movie ‘1920’ as some class got cancelled and we are generally pretty ‘jobless’ people. Hmph.
I had very nicely distanced out myself from it and not even talks of an apparent hunk of a hero could lure me. Suddenly I found myself cornered by Sim n Aqua. Ahem when they did not quite succeed in convincing me they brought in reinforcements. Enter Kingkong(KK) and Rambo(R) (yes very weird code names... the stories which led to them are weirder still).. U see KK is someone u can never say no to. Yea ok maybe he’s not a dictator but he’s a smooth talker. A very good one. Always makes me accept stuff. Sheesh. I HAVE to do something bout him. And there’s R.. phew..God save all the girls on this planet.
So between the four of them, they literally dragged me to watch this 1920 freak show with promises that they would let me close my eyes when I wanted and that even though so many of us were going, they would sit beside me. U see this is how I was fooled. No. Its not that they didn’t keep all of their promises, they did sit beside me..We sat in the order KK Sim Me R Aqua..yea that’s true, right in the middle.

Honestly, I don’t even want to review the movie. I didn’t like it. But then its not my kinda movie anyway so don’t be prejudiced on my account. Go if u want to but don’t say I dint warn ya.
I watched the whole movie this time. Not because I wanted to. Because KK Sim n R wouldn’t leave my hands. They kept on holding them and kept me hostage right there in my seat. There were many moments during the movie when I was looking at the screen horrified and all three of them looking at me, watching me struggle with my hands. We created quite a scene. When my hands weren’t ‘chained’ I was made to hold all the popcorn chips etc so that I could achieve my goal. Aqua however was as scared as me so she wasn’t among the conspirators. Thankfully (I think) the movie was preetttttttttty boring in the middle when all of them got irritated. A special mention for the climax scene.. it was hilarious. I mean it wasn’t supposed to be but then I guess we had all had enough.
All this in front of a complete stranger. Ok a friend’s friend about whom u have heard a lot and so has he about u doesn’t make him any less a stranger. He was sitting beside KK and was witness to each and every antics of mine. I later found out he thought I was cute. Dude, on a different day, I would have loved the compliment. My behaviour was anything but cute. But u were cute though :P



Btw, wtf? Movie shows Architects being called to the mansion and them being killed brutally one by one. And here we were, all of us, prospective architects watching mass murder of our own people. SHEESH. Good choice my friends. And hunk of a hero??? What the hell?? He might be good-looking but he can’t act! And the leading lady..the less said about her, the better. Naa actually don’t listen to me. I’m prejudiced anyways. As expected, my experience was horrific.

I can’t understand why people watch horror movies? NO, wait.. I can’t understand why people MAKE horror movies?

Welcome Aboard !

Yoohoo everybody! Guess who's back?!
ME!!!!!!!
(erm..ok ok)
Exactly a year ago, when i had actually started bloggin, i'd made a promise to myself that i'd post atleast once a month.. it really bugs me wen ppl cant find time for their own blog.. i mean, how much of your precious time will be wasted if u put up one post eh??
bleh, i proved myself wrong. Infact i proved to myself that 24 hours is too short a time for a whole day..even if i get 36 of 'em i would b unstaisfied.. gosh ther is just so much of work, so much of life, so much of everything. Sigh. i love my life.
Yes, college has started. Infact two n a half months hav already been utilized in lotsa useful n effective work. Please note that i havent used the word 'over' here, because now, just whilin away time is impossible.. i wud say i've learnt much more in the past two months than i did in the last two completely useless years.
I finally agree that i'm a goner wen it comes to time management. People all around me complain that i dont hav time for them n my college work 'says' that all the time. Its said, if u really want to do something, u will automatically find time for it. but wil someone tell me, that if u want to do so many things n there is literally no time for things lik sleep in your life, how in the world do u find time for other stuff. No no i'm not arguin, i'm just stating the mere fact i'm not good at time management right now.
This mornin, my uncle asked me a very interestin question, what is relaxation for u?
for me? *ahem* for me relaxation is no deadlines, no submission dates n no assignment backlog. If these three r out of my life for sometime, i wud really feel lik i'm on a holiday. but alas, i've chosen a field wher these three make my life.
*Ahem* here i wud lik to take Monty's side bcoz i completely understand what she's goin through. Both of us r accused of being..er.. 'busy'. We r on the same boat gurl ;)

But inspite of less sleep (or no sleep) n killin schedules, i love wat i'm doing.. if not here, i cant imagine wher i would be. In these two months, already there is so much that i never dreamt of doing, that i've done.. for starters i've started to adore some of my seniors totally. Most of the fourth-years and third-years r an inspiration to me n i'm awed by their work. Literally n figuratively.
I've started takin all the responsibilities. i've started lookin forward to goin to college each n every day n i've hardly bunked any class in last two months. This is quite in contrast to my behaviour in my junior college wher i never ever took interest in wat i was doin. i hardly attended lectures n studies was just a formality. hehe..its sort of a opposite for me..ppl attend junior college seriously n then start treatin degree course lik a formality. Guess i'm alwaz upside down :P

I remember the first time i found out about Architecture as a course. The first college that i wrote down in my list of impossible colleges was my college. It rested on the top (beatin even SPA n JJ collges) because it had just twenty seats n i was rest assured i wont make it. Now when i'm here, even though i hav to board buses at 6 in the mornin n sometimes get to sleep at 3 at night, i love being on the bus, i love being a part of everything :D *fingers crossed* I'm glad of each n every decision that i've ever made.It is a bed of roses and has thorns too, but I've finally found a place where i belong. Totally.
Thank heavens.

Metamorphosis

Yes, its Time. Its Time for something to happen. Time to evolve. Time for the butterfly to come out of the cucoon. And She will.

Before going any further, I'd like to tell the people who have been after my life, asking me (after my previous post) who my supposed 'lurve' is , sadly guys, there's nobody. Infact,I prefer it this way :)
Last four weeks have been really weird. I've realised how I can do absolutely 'nothin' n totally enjoy myself. This was quite an achievement,was quite surprised myself bcoz if I were to lead a monotonous life, I would go crazy probably. But astonishingly, I've exceeded my own expectations. Trust me, doing nothin (that is, no productive work. Please use the distance/displacement rule to understand this complex situation.U cant? Too bad ) is an art. Contact me for further guidance on this matter.

Anyway, so once during my one month long holiday, I switched on MTV hoping to listen to some new tracks. Here's how it went-

Song One- 'Mehbooba mehbooba ooooooooo' by Himesh in Aap ka Surooooor
OMG. I'd never actually heard Himesh's version. I kinda flip the channel as soon as I see/hear him.It was jus this instance, when I wanted to know what the whole Asha-Himesh controversy was all about. DAMN. my mistake.
Horrible horrible song. Thank god RD Burman died long time back. This was one good reason for suicide, seeing his song 'oooooh'ed away by the Huzoooorrr. Or maybe murder?

Song Two- 'Aa khushi se khud khushi kar le' from RGV's Darling (sic)
Consider the irony. No actually, the timing was perfect. I wanted himesh to listen to this very song after song one. Or maybe, this song is 'made' so that anybody who listens to it wants to commit murder right then :| N to top it all, the lead dancer (whats her name again?)looked like she jus came straight from her own haunted house.
Mr.Akhtar, would u stop doing other random stuff and start writing songs again? These other people make me sick!

Song Three- 'Naughty Naughty' from Cash
Really, this was sheer torture. On a nice hip hop tune, the guys went 'Aey chori' or sumthin. (!!!) Please, what were u guys thinkin? The three actresses looked like they were at a halloween party(??!!) The less said about this song, the better.
No wait, I'm getting all this wrong. What was I thinking when I decided to watch all this?

After these three sickenin songs, I could not listen or see any longer and returned to watch Ducktales.( Stop smirking! I can listen to Unca Scroooge anyday but not Bollywood anymore.)
But talkin of Bollywood, the most watchble movie is in town. Chak de India! omg, it was such an awesomeeeeeeeeee movie!! Really, after quite some time, bollywood has given us a movie worth watching. SRK as usual was GOD. I didnt like the rushes of the movie but it was, astonishing, the most hilarious, patriotic n nerve cracking movie I've seen in a long long time. I would recommend it to everybody. And please watch it in theaters. Let Yash Raj make a lil money outta this movie? Please?

Btw, its exactly a month since I've taken a decision and chosen the 'path' of my life.
Tomorrow I hav an orientation in my *new* college. I'm looking forward to it. But yes, this doesnt mean I'm not having any other feelings for it. Actually I am kinda havin a panic attack *sheepish grin*. I really cant help it. New people, new place, new life. Ok now that definitely sounds fun :)

Finally, its during my happiness phase that I realised as to how much I've lost due to various *undisclosed* reasons. I've let so many people walk out of my life, just like that. Its not that I dont care, I do, I really do. But its just hard to admit it. Maybe it was my fault, maybe yours, but doesnt matter now, does it?

Note- After reading this post just now, I dont particularly know why I've mentioned all this here. I was going to write about something else. But this is my blog n I have liberty to write whatever I want! 60 years of independence right? ;)

Ray Of Sunshine.

All of a sudden,I'm very happy.
I keep smiling throughout the day, singing to myself, enjoying every moment of my life.
Reason?
None at all.
I dont need a reason to be happy. I'm happy because of everything around me. My existence makes me happy. And I choose to remain happy hereafter.
Do you?

What should I study?

ok now dont look at me lik that. i jus stumbled into this Blogthings thingy :P

Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful

You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules. You Should Study: Art Art history Architecture Comparative religions Eastern religion Education Music Philosophy

What Should You Study?

I could NOT belive the results.

Reaction?

Wow. One stupid exam. U wait for it for ages.. postponin other stuff so dat u can peacefully (sic) giv da exam n then enjoy ur life later. U spend a whole day beim apprehensive bout da next day. U irritate other ppl by sendin them weird msgs bout how nervous u r. n then wen they finally manage to calm u down, u stil spend a sleepless nite waitin for da next mornin, da mornin of the exam. n wen u almost r ready to leave for da exam, a fone call.. it jus took a fone call from da exam centre ppl sayin..Exam's been posponed for a day later :S
Now, U temme, HOW shud i react?
P.S- dun temme i hav one MORE day to prepare..i really CANNOT bear all this nemore.
I have prepared all dat i cud hav. It may seem odd but its highly frustratin n i jus want to get DONE wit it.

UPDATE- (24th April,3.35pm )-
Whoeva said..dat wen one door closes another opens up.. was speakin da truth! heheh.. so i was all frustrated in da mornin! ;) but i jus got my Rectified AIEEE admit card wich has my RIGHT category(previously, those morons had put me in OBC category).. um soooo glad of it! sheesh! Things r lukin much better now! :)