Off-White

So I noticed that my blog has been pretty gloomy for quite some time. Not only is that very uncool but very wrong too. And life's never dull, is it? So many things happening all around. New, exciting things.

 Also, time to say good bye to so many people. I'll miss them a lot, all my B-tech friends. I didn't know, up until now, how many friends I had made in the past four years and now that they're all ready to go, clicking that one last picture, writing that one last wish, smiling and waving that one last time, I'm quite nostalgic and don't want to let go.

But then many new things await them too. New degrees, new courses, new jobs, new people. And talking about new jobs, I got through THE  place that I had been dying to get into for the 24 weeks of professional training in the next semester. I'll be going to a completely new city on my own for the very first time. I'm so bloody excited about it. I know its gonna be much tougher than I can even imagine but then its also waayy more exciting than anything I've ever done.So maybe its the time to move on, to new things, to take new roads, to make new goals.

Lots of other stuff happening. Aqua *ahem* has got many new "proposals" and even some international ones. And apparently, none of this is her fault. *Cough* *cough* I'd rather not discuss this further.

Tam turned 22 last week! A veryy happy birthday to her. I hope all wonderful things happen to her and she is bestowed with lots of blessings.

Also, among other terrific news, I got a new lappy! :D

Sooo pretty, isnt it?
Yeay! It's also super awesome!

More on this later. Bye for now :)

Mushy and Wonderful.

Something that I've wanted for a long time has happened and I'm sooooooooooooooooooo happy. I feel giddy and gooey and mushy and so very happy. Dont know how long this will last but oh-my-god I feel like I'm sitting on a super-fast roller coaster ride and I cant get it to stop. I'm so scared. But in a good way. A very good way.

Drive Me Crazy.

Yes, I've been taking driving lessons, much to the horror of most of people who know me. All i can say is that so far I've managed not to hurt anyone. Yet, that is.

I do all sorts of crazy stuff when i drive though. Like once i completely lost it when there was a lot of traffic and vehicles were coming from all directions. I sort of abandoned the steering wheel and everything and went "Omigod what do i do now?" and my teacher, an old, bald, plumpy guy, said "*Sigh* You drive. Ahead."

And then there are times when i ask him neurotically, "Ok am i actually driving on my own? Like u aren't helping at all, right? Like this is nice, huh? Like I'm not even scared now, huh? Like I'm getting better everyday, eh?", to which his usual reply is, "Yea.Turn left now." Sheesh so much for appreciation.

But its not like he is the quiet types or anything ok? He keeps on and on and on about the road and the traffic and once he even narrated a mahabharat story to me. All this to avoid over concentration on my part, he says. :|

So today , i was driving after like a month (coz i had exams and then was out etc) and it takes time to get into the groove right? I mean the first time ever that i drove a car i was like "Wheeeeeeeee", its like totally fun, the way the car responds to even the slightest touch of your foot. But the fun tends to decrease as one goes beyond the basics and your teacher lets you drive completely on your own especially on really really busy roads.

So,as usual he was talking incessantly, about getting a license,
Teacher- *sounding really doubtful * So, u are eighteen, right?
My Thought Bubble - Duuuude. You ask me this after you teach me how to drive?
Me- Yea totally. I'm 20. *smug look*
Teacher- Yea. Turn left now. And then stop. And slowly. *Gives me his this-is-not-a-racing-car look*
(er..i tend to drive a wee bit fast. I'm all about the speed u'know :P)

So i halt (yes, very slowly) in front of a house and out comes the next trainee.
My Thought Bubble- o_O .....WTH?! She is going to drive?? duuuude she looks 13!! Baby faced and still has baby fat!! i am SO getting out of this car right now.
New Girl- *walks towards the car, looks at me and starts smiling away to glory *
My Thought Bubble- ohkayy..she seems really happy huh? must be her first/second class. *smiles in a reluctant yet encouraging way*
New girl- hey! St.Joseph's right?
Me- umm, yeah.
My Thought Bubble- ohhh-kay. She recognizes me. She knows which school i went to.And  i have no idea what-so-ever who she is. Dude, i am famous :D :D ok fine, maybe not so much. She must be a junior. What if she's a senior *freaks out*. But she looks so small.OK ok get a grip. Just look outside the window okay. Deep breathing will help i think.

 Heh. So yea, I drive myself a lil crazy at times.  I mean thats normal, right? :P

Yellow.

So this is what it feels like, to be free? Its nice really. Not bad at all. My first proper "free" time after 14 months, it sure feels nice. And it feels new. It does.

After much MUCH wait, sixth semester is kinda* over. To sum it up, I would say its been a  rough semester. I was going to say 'tough' but that would be an understatement. Last month was crazy, completely crazy (erm..hence no post). This time both our mainDesign AND workingDrawing submissions were completed before the end sem exams, so yea, its been rough :)

Exams got over last week and I had an awesome one week holiday after a long long time. Was away for a few days and a lot of time was spent on making to-do lists (wheee!), the first item on each list being updating and upgrading this blog.

Also,this is the first time that I'm trying new templates. So do tell me how this new template looks.You can also vote on the tiny little poll-thing thats on the left side. I'm tryin out different templates so i think this blog is going to look different (wheee!) every month or so.But for now, "Its All Yellow" :P

A lot many things have happened recently that I keep forgetting to mention here. Like I got a new pc two months back. Its so awesome.Till now, I'm like super happy with it *touch wood*.And other such random stuff you know?

Among other things, i had the most amazing 'beach' experience lately. But more on that later. Ohmygod i SO love the ocean. I do, I really really do. I can just keep looking at the waves forever. Its totally therapeutic. Next only to shopping, ofcourse.

So I think I'm going to wrap up here, hoping that these next two months, i will write more, live more.
Cheers!

*One submission is still left but ehh..wotcha gonna do, eh? :S

Best. Day. Ever.

Okay this is a new thing that I want to start writing about, on a regular basis. The best days of my life. Like THE best days. Like those days when I come home and cant stop smiling :)) So that when i'm all sad and frustu, i can remind myself that i had these days too.

So the first one of my Best Day Ever (BDE) is today ofcourse. Lets say worked hard and partied harder..wayy harder :P Had awesome fun in the evening.. college cultural fest and one over-the-top amazing party later that night which had awesome food and great people.. oh yea and we have case study submission tomoro so yea spent the whole day working for that.  So a great day definitely. Cannot give anymore details here *winks*

P.S. This weekend we had our college Cul-fest 'Xtasy' and it was awwwwwesum this year! yeay! :)) It totally rocked yesterday..Tam finally came to my college and she luved the fest too..Moh n her frnd A, were amazing anchors and a special mention for my dear M who danced lik he was a rockstar..no,actually, he is a rockstar :D

Shit i think yesterday was a BDE also. lol.

For all the BDE(s) to come.. Cheers!

Nice and Cozy. Almost.

Winter is almost gone. Almost.

This year, it was freakishly cold here. Like normally, winter is pleasant here, being near coastal area and all but this year, we all were lik- brrrrrrrrrrrrr! all the time. So that is almost over.

Also, January is almost coming to an end. Almost.
It was a weird month considering the extreme highs and lows. And as you can see, i've deciced to blog more frequently. I've realised  that i blog a lot when i'm emotional like happy or sad or excited or frustrated. heh. So more of that from now.

My mainDesign submission is almost over. Almost.
 Jury is still pending but still, I've submitted my portfolio i.e. all my sheets. Phew. Its the bestest feeling (no, dont you raise those eyebrows at me. I will use wrong grammar whenever i feel like. hmph.). So yes, it is the most amazing feeling in the world, when one submits the portfolio. Its like nothing in the universe is more important to you than that portfolio. Something that you've created from scratch. Its such a proud moment, the submission.
 And when the jury rips off your design, pointing out gazillion mistakes,doing a complete post mortem, you seriously think about giving supari or better yet, finishing them off yourself.
Sigh. I tend to get aggresive about my work sometimes :|

Sixth sem has almost started. Almost.
As in first day was good. Second day was today and we kinda didnt have any classes so heh.
This time most of my classes are being taken by the wD proffessor that i mentioned earlier. So I'm like super happy and shit scared at the same time. (hehe)
And by the way, he told me yesterday... umm lets call him D (what? why are you giving me that suspicious look? There's no story behind the name 'D' .*wicked smile* Or maybe there is *more wicked smiles continue*).
Ok so D told me that I got the highest marks in his subject last semester and I was like *Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* on the inside and *shy demure smile* on the outside. lol.
Really, I'm on top of the world right now, with D praising me in front of the whole class and mD submission being over. I even went out shopping so as to celebrate the occasion. :P

For now, its nice and cozy and almost peaceful. Shit, this is so unlike my usual life. Lol.

Awesomeness.

As you might have (probably) guessed by now, I'm (still) obsessed with Barney (obviously) and his Awesomeness.
For the uninitiated, Barney is Barney Stinson. I refuse to give any more details. Go google it yourself.

But lately, i've realised i'm having some OCD-type symptoms . I mean i'm obsessed with my new phone (hehehhhhahah), i'm obsessed with 5-star, I'm obsessed with Facebook, I'm so obsessed with Farmville on fb, I'm obsessed with my new phone (oh shit did i mention it already?), I'm obsessed about gaining weight... God, i can go on n on n on about this. Seriously, I think i'm losing it. Or maybe not.

By the way, i'd gone to Ranchi in the first week of October for Zonasa'09 at BIT Mesra. Yeah, maybe i should explain that. ZONASA is the Zonal Assosiation Of Students of Architecture, and there is this annual fest which is awesome. There are like six such zones in India. My college is in the eastern zone. So there are like nine colleges here- CETb, IITkgp, ABIT, JU, GCA, BESU, NIT Patna, AUCE and BIT Mesra. So like every year we go and have the most awesome time ever at these fests. In my First year, it was held at AUCE Vizag, then in Second year at JU Kolkata and this year at BIT Mesra. It was great, we came second n all. Ok enough Zonasa details for one post. Don't want to bore you :P

So anyway, my trip was great. I mean it was a complete chaotic madhouse kinda great but yea great. We were supposed to come back via train to rkl and then bus journey from rkl to bbsr. But as we reached rkl , we were told that our buses got cancelled because of a strike and so we had no where to go. There we were, in an unknown city, at the platform, at 10 pm, 60 students, loads of luggage, very tired after six days of madness, with no where to go. People told us the bus strike wont be called off for about three more days. And there was no chance of getting train tickets either. It was one of those nights of my life that i will never ever forget. Finally after hours of waiting, all of us went to some roadside hotel to u kno, just chupao our heads for the remaining few hours of the night. It was completely 'Hotel Decent'* types. Can't talk much about that night though. The most memorable moments are unmentionable here.Night was weird. Morning was weirder. We just had to get back somehow (Parents had started freaking out now). So we blocked this General compartment of this 'only train' that goes to bbsr. Travelled the whole day. Had a complete Swades moment. Finally reached back in one piece.

And among other stuff, its finally happened. I'm 20. I'm now officially no more a teenager. When i say this, i get a lotta "Everybody-goes-through-this" stuff. Hmmmm..very nice. I dont care about what everybody goes through. When other people used to turn 20, I used to call them up and laugh for atleast 10 minutes non-stop and then list out the changes that occur when one crosses over from 19 to 20. Yes, 'one small step for man but a giant leap for you' type speeches. Turns out, i gave this speech to too many people who didnt think twice before returning the favor to me. Lol.. so i had like a zillion people say the same things a zillion times that day. Even my kid brother wrote an elaborate card listing out how I should act like a sane person now. Ok fine, so now i'm old. hmph. Only age-wise. I still choose to act like a five-year old. hmph. You grow up. :|

And one more thing. Why, oh why, is it such a crime to be single in this world today?!
Another convo that I had like a million times on my budday-
Birthday Wisher- Heyy Happy birthday!
Me- Heyy thanks!
B.W.- So what did you get for this bday?
Me- Oh i got a pho-
B.W.- (Not waiting for my answer) Yea wateva, what did your boyfriend get you?
Me- haha..I'm single yaar.. so this phon-
B.W.-Yea right, so what did he get you?
Me- nothin..i dont-
B.W.- Fine, dont tell me. hmph.
Me- ..............

Everytime I say i'm single, firstly, nobody believes me, then , when they do, they have such a wide-eyed expression on their faces i feel like tapping their heads to test whether their eyes can actually pop out or not. What is your problem, seriously.

Anyway, this is quite a long post and if u've actually read this till here, you really are as jobless as me are'nt u??

'Till next time
:P


*- If u've seen 'Jab We Met', you'll know.

Wheee !

I'm off on a 10-day long trip to Rajasthan and i'm leaving tommorow.. WHEEE!







*ahem*
*composes herself*
HELLLLOOOOO PEOPLE!! WHEEEE!
*ahem ahem*
ok fine, excuse me this time ok, my dear readers, coz i feel all nice nice and very very excited about my aforementioned holiday.
gee, its been SO long since i've been on a 'proper' proper holiday.. (is it just me or am i actually repeating a lotta words unneccessarily?)
so yea,i've been quite the traveller sorts when i was younger.
i've been to manyy places and almost ALL nice tourist places in India (ha! aren't u jealous now!) and i absolutely lovvvve travelling..going to new places..discovering new stuff! *dreamy look*
But unfortunately all this had reduced considerably during last four years, due to circumstances (stupid boards, dad's work, stupid boards again, mom's illness, stupid attendance thing in college.. etc etc etc)
However, during this time, i have gone to my cousins' city(s), also have been to Kolkatta gazillions of times, etc but these werent proper holidays..
So finally, my long wait is coming to an end and i'm goin to visit some of the very beautiful cities of Rajasthan(yeay!). I've once been to some places but i hardly remember all that.. gawd going to a place with such lovely architecture.. ahh i just hope its not too hot there.. but even if it is! All my friends have been like "yea Marwari going back to her Gaon!".. yea I am. hmph.
n I'm loving it!
:D






Yes, thats exactly what i'm saying for the past 2 days! WHEEEEE!

New n Improved !

Happy New Year to all! :)
Recently, I've come to realise that my blog has become a very frustrated, depressed, overworked and stressed-out person's blog. Let me inform u, that is in fact not true. hmph. There are many things that i may be. Being a pessimist is not one of 'em ;)

So here's 2009! heh! I'm sure everybody's made new resolutions.. Do share!
My resolution is to Talk less n Work more! I was never a chatterbox but whoa! all limits have been crossed by yours truly. The realisation has now dawned upon me that talking a lot reduces one's work output tremendously. So i shall not talk much and work hard. Thing is, my last year's resolution backfired majorly.. Twas 'Work hard n party harder'..bleh too much partying i tell u..too much!

Ok somehow this January I'm strongly reminded of Jan '07 and the contrast between the two.

~ Then,the thought of giving JEE's had robbed me of every tiny glint of happiness. I now want as many opportunities to prove myself n to improve.

~ My priorities in life have changed drastically. From just wanting to pass somehow in the board exams, i now want to be the best in everything.

~ My friends have mostly swapped their relationship status :P Happily-single ones have become committed *ahem ahem* n the happily-committed ones are now single *ahem*.
I'm still single. But now I'm one of the last few of this extinct species. Damn.

~ I fear I'm losing my innocence. This cruel world is changing me into a spiteful and bad-tempered sort of a person. I miss my 'sweet-lil-darling-angel' days :(

~ From being the subdued lil creature whom ppl generally refer to as 'mouse-type', I'm now referred to as a 'popular' person who's got friends wherever she goes. (however 'friends' here refers to mere acquaintances..i cannot boast of having many true friends)

~ My best friend is still my best friend but other ppl/friends have changed their status. Now there are many category of Friends like Perennial, Seasonal and Annual.
Perennial are the ones who are there all along, Seasonal are the ones who are one's friends at particular times n then vanish and then appear again, Annual are the ones that wish u diligently on your bday,new year,diwali,christmas etc. Apart from these, they forget u completely.

~ I've done most of the stuff that i had imagined i would do in college so now there's nothing left but to study ;)

~ From being mostly a singer in all kinda competitions- school or otherwise, me has turned into dancer these days. From frontstage-fright to frontstage-addiction. Sigh. Where are my backstage days?

bleh. There are many other changes. i cant possibly list out all.
n btw ppl who did read my previous post, nothin to worry about folks! Me did the second submission too! exams are now over and life is not all that bad anymore :P

*Ahem* I've been talking too much again haven't I? Damn!

Welcome Aboard !

Yoohoo everybody! Guess who's back?!
ME!!!!!!!
(erm..ok ok)
Exactly a year ago, when i had actually started bloggin, i'd made a promise to myself that i'd post atleast once a month.. it really bugs me wen ppl cant find time for their own blog.. i mean, how much of your precious time will be wasted if u put up one post eh??
bleh, i proved myself wrong. Infact i proved to myself that 24 hours is too short a time for a whole day..even if i get 36 of 'em i would b unstaisfied.. gosh ther is just so much of work, so much of life, so much of everything. Sigh. i love my life.
Yes, college has started. Infact two n a half months hav already been utilized in lotsa useful n effective work. Please note that i havent used the word 'over' here, because now, just whilin away time is impossible.. i wud say i've learnt much more in the past two months than i did in the last two completely useless years.
I finally agree that i'm a goner wen it comes to time management. People all around me complain that i dont hav time for them n my college work 'says' that all the time. Its said, if u really want to do something, u will automatically find time for it. but wil someone tell me, that if u want to do so many things n there is literally no time for things lik sleep in your life, how in the world do u find time for other stuff. No no i'm not arguin, i'm just stating the mere fact i'm not good at time management right now.
This mornin, my uncle asked me a very interestin question, what is relaxation for u?
for me? *ahem* for me relaxation is no deadlines, no submission dates n no assignment backlog. If these three r out of my life for sometime, i wud really feel lik i'm on a holiday. but alas, i've chosen a field wher these three make my life.
*Ahem* here i wud lik to take Monty's side bcoz i completely understand what she's goin through. Both of us r accused of being..er.. 'busy'. We r on the same boat gurl ;)

But inspite of less sleep (or no sleep) n killin schedules, i love wat i'm doing.. if not here, i cant imagine wher i would be. In these two months, already there is so much that i never dreamt of doing, that i've done.. for starters i've started to adore some of my seniors totally. Most of the fourth-years and third-years r an inspiration to me n i'm awed by their work. Literally n figuratively.
I've started takin all the responsibilities. i've started lookin forward to goin to college each n every day n i've hardly bunked any class in last two months. This is quite in contrast to my behaviour in my junior college wher i never ever took interest in wat i was doin. i hardly attended lectures n studies was just a formality. hehe..its sort of a opposite for me..ppl attend junior college seriously n then start treatin degree course lik a formality. Guess i'm alwaz upside down :P

I remember the first time i found out about Architecture as a course. The first college that i wrote down in my list of impossible colleges was my college. It rested on the top (beatin even SPA n JJ collges) because it had just twenty seats n i was rest assured i wont make it. Now when i'm here, even though i hav to board buses at 6 in the mornin n sometimes get to sleep at 3 at night, i love being on the bus, i love being a part of everything :D *fingers crossed* I'm glad of each n every decision that i've ever made.It is a bed of roses and has thorns too, but I've finally found a place where i belong. Totally.
Thank heavens.

Ray Of Sunshine.

All of a sudden,I'm very happy.
I keep smiling throughout the day, singing to myself, enjoying every moment of my life.
Reason?
None at all.
I dont need a reason to be happy. I'm happy because of everything around me. My existence makes me happy. And I choose to remain happy hereafter.
Do you?

What should I study?

ok now dont look at me lik that. i jus stumbled into this Blogthings thingy :P

Your Learning Style: Unconventional and Insightful

You are very intuitive and ingenious. You're attracted to any field of study that lets you break the rules. You Should Study: Art Art history Architecture Comparative religions Eastern religion Education Music Philosophy

What Should You Study?

I could NOT belive the results.

WHITE boards n BLACK berries

A very warm Heylo to my dear blogreaders (if ther r some).
Heh. yea i've been away for quite sum tym.. first da million JEEs (as i had mentioned earlier) then my one-week-extended-to-two-weeks holiday in kolkata.. n other irrelevant stuff happenin.. so tym for sum news update..

* I've given enof no. of exams n am fed up.. now i BETTER get thru sum of them or else... :S

* Hav got thru a coll in chennai n am gettin da stream of my choice BUT da college doesnt hav AICTE approval.. so this is lik an option wich cant b called an option :S

* I thoroughly enjoyed my Kolkata trip (oh yea i did *nods violently*) thanks to my Darling piscean sis 'C' , my sagi bro 'K' n capri bro 'KM'.. thanks folks.. really really had a blast!! except for da few entrances ther ofcourse :S

* lol.. one incident bout my k-trip is hilarious actually..
my sis 'C' had planned a trip jus after mine.. to a hill station n all.. so obviously she needed to update her music collection n all.. n very unfortunately they hav DIALUP connection ther.. usin broadband has made me to habituated to fast net access dat usin dialup was a real PAIN.. so dear 'C' decided she wud download all her songs usin her dad's Blackberry.. wich is SOOO fast.. after dwnloadin quite sum songs one nite, wen she was pesterin uncle to giv her da fone, he asked wat da dwnloadin charges wer.. hehe.. ofcourse she had conviniently forgotten to verify DAT.. v called up those creeps n here's wat they had to say- First 500 KB dwnloadin free free free n after dat, da charges r 50p/KB.. er.. WATTT???? 50 PAISA PER KB????
heh.. after dwnloadin 68 songs.. wen v calculated, da total cost amounts to bout Rs. 1,75,000 :S
if they actually send us da bill.. my sis is BIGTYM screwed. i jus HOPE(wish, pray,beg) dat some miracle saves us all.. or my uncle wud probably send 'C' to exile or sumthin. God save us all. Amen. :S

* On a happier note..me had loads of fun wit C, stayin awake every nite n sleepin only wen v suddenly saw broad day lite.. heheh.. watchin movies whole day.. n yes, saw Spiderman 3 ..movie's second half was greattttt n James Francooooo *Drools*

* While returnin from Kol, me n my lil bro 'A' wer travellin alone.. but in da very next berth was one of my ol school frens.. hahaha.. he's a total idiot but v had so much fun studyin behavin lik small school kids.. mann i miss SCHOOLLLLL..

* Niece 'P' is growin up n FAST.. now she can chat on phone n speak on any given topic non-stop. Wow! :S

* Now dat exams r almost over.. i now realised i hav ABSOLUTELY nothin to do.. except blabberin on Fone, surfin net for hours n watchin TV. The last option however has now been limited to Koffee, Indian Idol-3 n Love story. Koffee is ofcourse hilarious as alwaz, II-3 has CHinese Chang who is SOOOOO adorable.. he's those rare guys who u kno..i'd lik to say.. Dude keep singin while i drool over u n your voice.. *blushes* heheh.. he's reallyyyy veryyy guuuddd.. :D n Love Story is this show by Anurag Basu (Gangster, Metro fame ), interestin concept n da lead guy is again 'Droolable' :S

* Everybdy around me is behavin in an odd manner..Gone r those days wen i was da optimistic n Tintin was da confused soul. Tintin has suddenly bcom this 'Guru' of optimism n me is very inspired by her nowadays..
Abhu is at her wit's-end lik me.. but she's now started writin all poems n all wich portray her frens as traiters.. ya abhu..dun think i dint notice. Hmph. i wud rather NOT giv explanations to this Capri who's got so much in store for her! :P
Monty thankfully hasnt changed much.. but but but.. yay!! she's got thru THE BEST law skool in da country n v r all JUBLIATIN!!! yay!!!!! i'm sooooo happy for her.. n even more bcoz this means she has One more month to stay wit us!!! yay!!!
Some frens r 'Busy' wit exams.. Some hav their results out n r celebratin n some sulkin , anddd some r MOVIN (IN)to CCD (*roflin* sorry buddy,i cudnt resist dat ok :P) :S

* n By da way, Abhu's efforts wer very gud indeed towards her FJ-DJ thing (hey dat rhymed!).. way to go gurl..U jus wait n watch ok? :S

* Nowadays suddenly i feel really nostalgic bout my 12th std books. Yuck. i hate myself for this :S

* All da Boards hav declared their results but i dunno wat saddistic pleasure our Council derives in delayin them extensively. so they r finally gonna b out tomoro n i dun think i can sleep tonite. Also, AIEEE results to b out tomoro..so..
Bye Bye Frens, Romans, Countrymen :S

Ni(e)ce Indeed !

Heh..This is da best part of living in a joint family..one has so many cousins dat u're sure to bcom Buas n Chachus before u can actually pronounce these words :D
(n yes..Please do not think dat da direct translation of bua n chachu is aunty n uncle for heavens's sake! )
So i have 2 darling nephews n 1 adorable Niece!
My niece 'P' i must say is much smarter n lively than my nephews! ha! Girls are smarter! She's so amazingly clever.. Its fascinating to see da things she does..its too much for her age!!! Gawd.. one partiular incident jus a few minutes back forced me to blog bout her :-
V wer both doin tympass..both had nothin to do..no work..heheh.. so..
Me- hey P! U wanna listen to music?
P- yeaayyy!!
Me- okay..*shuffles thru her playlist* hmm..wich song..wich songgg..
P- *starts singin n dancin by herself*
Me- This song is nice?
P- No.
Me- erm..this dress is nice?
P- No.
Me- okhay.. I'm nice?
P- NO.
Me- *Bewildered* I'm NOT nice?
P- No.
Me- I'm BAD?
P- Yes.
Me- WHY AM I NOT NICE???
P- I wont say.
Me- WAAATT??
P- *smiles wickedly*
Me- Hmph. i wont talk to u. *turns around**Waits for a gud five minutes before turnin back*
Me- hmmm??
P- ur NOT nice.
Me- I'm SOOO not talkin to u.
P- *smiles, grins, smirks*
Me- fine. u're NOT nice too.
P- U're NOT nice.
Me- Y??Y??? i play wit u?? i make u listen to songs?? i take u out?? i tell u stories?? i'm STILL not NICE?
P- U're not nice.
Me- *turns around again**looks back at her again*
P- *jus shakes her head* *evil grin still intact*
Me- Fine. Fine. Fine. i'm not givin u any chocolates either.
P- U're Very NICE.
Now, DATS my girl!

Here she is.. da Two-year-old brat!!!

Cross My Heart !

So, wat is da whole JEE bout?
Sittin in da hall..wit bout 50 other kids..tryin to crack a question paper meant to make way for ur future?
ok..this is an honest confession..how i felt while givin IIT-JEE..prolly da worst exam in my entire life.. it was devastatin..
hmm..so does it require a mention here..dat i never planned for IIT? dat my studies wer never JEE oriented? dat i wasted las two years in i-dunno-doin-wat?
hmm..i think not.
so..talkin bout las two years...lots of stuff has changed.. movin outta school has been da most difficult phase i guess..
Mistakes. dats wat da las two years wer filled of. Mistakes.
Worse, i realised this in jan end-feb beginnin 07.
I dun blame anybody bt myself for all dat i've done, n today hav got da courage to face it n accept dat, it was my mistake.
Not dat i knowingly did wat i did [duh? it was a mistake rite? :( ].
If i list out wat all wrong i did..this post wud b an infinite one..so basically, in short, i lost focus, took life for granted, wondered y i took up science, n brooded dat i was stuck at 89% in my tenth boards n lost hope.
yes, while readin it, one mite feel wat a silly silly girl i am.. but..dats unfortunately HOW i am!
In Feb, i remember cryin each day.. suddenly realizin how much i dint kno..how much i had to do..how much i had lost.. suddnly da prospect of Flunkin occured to me [ok..this was a bit too much i accept :D ]
but then..cryin wasnt a total waste of tym..it made me realise wat had to b done..
i felt soooooooo foolish.. lik everythin was outta my control! one month (wit only 28 days dat too) n two years' course!
Sheesh!
But i did it..sumhow..n managed to scrap thru my boards... honestly..i mite NOT get near 90 at all but i think i'll manage an 80 (i sure hope i do!)
N this wudnt hav been possible witout these amazin ppl!
(in random order)

Abhu- My Guide *smiles* (i kno ur smilin too :P)
yes, Abhu was my guide..suddenly i felt at sea..so much to do..so lil tym..if it hadnt been for her i wud hav never got my confidence back!
She taught me a lotta stuff.. n da fact dat all was not lost n if i dint study then..i mite lose wat i'm capable of gettin! Thanks girl! i owe this one to u!

Monty- My Light *grins*
yes, Monty was my light in da truest sense..she's soooooo full of optimism n joy n happiness n hope dat she induces it to u! She helped me soo much in thinkin positively n thinkin in da rite way..ppl say battles r won in da mind..well she showed me how! Thank u so much snehoodeeeeeeee!!!

Tintin- My Instructor *heehee*
lol..yea Tintin was my instructor teelin me wat to study wen to study n stuff (though dat doesnt make sense coz she's in commerce) but still..v used to discuss wat v wud study together n sort of a goal-reachin strategy! (we wud decide to call uo each other only wen v wud hav finished a particular portion..hehe..n this wud me bout 6 times a day :D ) Thank u sweeeetttiieeeee!

LF- My Mentor *smirks* :P
yes..rite from talkin bout everyday to wishin me before every exam to askin my experince each day..LF's been my mentor truly!:) :) :) i remember callin LF in da middle of da nite n cryin (read howlin)my heart out.. n suddenly dogs started barkin madly around him..n he was lik- See, even dogs r affected by ur cryin!!! Stop cryin baby! hehe..after dat, i think twice before cryin! :D Thanksssssssssss

Mom- My strength *gets all nostalgic*
yes..she dint mind wen i told her i was gonna flunk.. she said- ok u'll jus hav to giv a supplementary next year *smiles wickedly*..lol..
n wen i kept repeatin 'dun expect nethin me' she wud maintain a smile n say - ok
(now she tells me how much she wanted to laugh at my face.. thank god u dint mom!)
can i tel u thanks too? :)

My Net Frens- Raghu..who kept postin all feb long writin really inspirational posts! u rock dude!
Aayush- for sendin me a msg sayin - Wateva happens, how much ever other things mite change..i wont! thank u sooo much for dat..it really meant a lot to me :D

n To all those ppl who kept callin me in Feb n sayin those encouragin words! Thanks a ton folks!
n yes, 'A', my lil bro..who kept irritatin me but stil stopped me from cryin most of da tym by annoyin me so dat i wud giv up grief n start scoldin him bigtym! Thanks re.. u've suffered most ! (mind u, i shout a lot. a lot. a lot.)
(i hope this doesnt sound lik an oscar-receivin Thank-u-speech bt i really really really wanted to thank u folks!)

So..amongst other things, um sittin for tons of JEEs n hope to make it in atleast one of them :D
oh n i forgot to add my recent inspiration.. Mr. Adnan Sami for losin 109 kgs!!!! whoa man...now um not very nervous bout losin da abominable weight dat i hav gained durin las two months..stayin at home n hoggin! Adnan mannn u hav sum guts !!! literally!

Until next tym.. Chao!

Un-Cynical Me.

A sequel to a much Unwanted Feeling.





Here I stand,
In the middle of sumwhere,
Everything looks grand,
Life's givin me, my share.

I laugh out, i smile,
There r a lotta expectations,
n once in a while,
I feel da spice of Rejuvenation.

I look around me,
I see a lotta things,
I look behind me,
I see a lotta things,
And lo behold thee,
I have a lil foresight,
n ahead of me,
I see a shimmerin light.

Its hope, i guess,
That's saved me ,
From pain n distress,
Helpin me out of da Mess

I've come a lot further,
A lot Nearer n closer,
To the land of Wonder n Dreams,
thats jus a lil way ahead,
Coz its definitely more than wat it seems,
I've had enof of Dread!

I've stood still, waitin,
N waitin for things to be better,
Hoping things wud jus ,
Return to their normal quarter,
Coz it was a serene calm night.
But those days r long gone,
Cynicism has been replaced by Delight!

Now Sun's come out,
N he's ready wit all da answers,
Ther's no confusion, no doubt.

'Wat do u hav to say Mr.Sun?'
'Looks lik better times hav already begun,
Life, as it is Seen,
Is wat da Mind n Soul portray,
Tomorrow alwaz is n has been,
A Better Day.'

Liberty !

LIBERTY PEACE ENFRANCHISEMENT!

Yay!

My Boards r Theoritically, Practically, Literally, Officially, Legally OVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

*Applaud*

Thank u Thank u Thank u!!

Paintin da town Red!

(er..written on March 4th.. cudnt publish then.. heheheh )
Hmm..heard this phrase a lotta times… has many meanings
But sometimes.. ppl take it too literally…
Ppl asked me- u playin holi this tym?
Me- No way!!! U mad!!! Boards da next day! No ways..
Even las nite wen my fren told me to enjoy holi…
I was lik- no ya… u enjoy.. I’ll b wit my books.
(see R, I wasn’t irritated wit u.. was jus goin thru da holi blues..heheh)
Sheesh! So dat is wat I had thought!
Till 12.15 pm … I was happily sitting in my room.. whole morning nobody had forced me to play holi n all… ahhh.. peaceful life..
12.15 pm :
A Bhai enters my room already lookin fuuny wit colour all over
A Bhai- wat u doin in ur room? Come down.. its holi..
Me- no way ya! We hav exams remember? U’ve finished everythin or wat?
A Bhai – u comin or not?
Me – no.
A Bhai- wat? Holi comes once a year…blah blah blah
Me- um NOT comin.
He loses hope n goes out.
12.25pm :
C Bhai enters da room.. (he’s lookin even more ‘coloured’)
C Bhai- come.
Me- er..
C Bhai- come.
Me- (starts stammering) I got.. boards… 2moro…I..cant.. i… cant..
C bhai- its 12.25 rite now.. if u don’t come by 12.30..
I look at him wit pleadin eyes
He looks at me wit threatening eyes
Me- ok


Sheesh! So much for miss prim n proper who was gonna study whole morning.. n who had been lamentin for d alas two days dat this will b da only holi she’ll miss.
Whoa.. I wasn’t goin to.. but u guys don’t kno C Bhai.. he’s my eldest cousin n da only one in my house who has da power to scare me… n at holi.. he becomes a total avatar of da holi god! Doesn’t leave nebody! If u try to act smart n try to hide n ur room or bathroom... very bad idea.. he’ll bang on da doors wit his colour-enriched hands.. till u think da doors r gonna giv away.. n da way he smudges dat slimy colour (da permanent silvery ones.. he doesn’t even kno wats gulal, da lesser harmful substance) over all ur face! eeuuwwwwwwwwww
Now for da consequences-
I’ve turned a bright shade of PINK now.
Oh… sorry sorry… my FACE is pink.. my hands r MAROON .. hair is RED n nails r GREEN!
So all in all um lookin lik a total monster! (wud hav put up a pic but…hheehhe)

45 minutes of pure fun has its disadvantages I guess !


Today- hehe.. colours come off quite a bit… thank goodness for da number of soaps, shampoos n facewashes available in da country:)
hope u guys had an amazin holi!

Its Done!

Yes, um squeaky.. yes, i used to howl at da name of injections.. yes, i can shed tears at da drop of a hat.. but this tym it was different.
My piercin was getting delayed due to weird reasons lik mom dad suddenly goin outta town n stuff.. but then..it had to happen..
So 2de..my mom decided enof is enof.. she n my aunt took me n v set out for da Mission.. i was forced to eat icecreams,chocolates, popcorn, pastries, pizzas, kulfis .. heheh.. (forced?? ummm...wrong term actually..hehhehe)
i felt lik askin - Bakre ko halaal karne se pehle khilaaya pilaaya jaata hai na?
lol... so after all dat they took me to a 'Sunaar' (goldsmith)..
he dint take much tym..
he took da gold earring..
it was very sharpppppppp.. brrrrr..
caught hold of my ear
n
Whao!
it was done!
sheesh!!
soo quickly?
i herd 'Crack Crack Crack' n it was done..
bludy this was easy n it dint even hurt!!
then da next ear.. over! finished..
i dint even drop a tear let alone scream!
phew! so much for nitemares involvin me n a hangman.. hehehehe...
so its done.
Amen.

Bye Bye '06!!

Well..i've finally decided to giv a farewell to a year dat was sooooo great...
n sum tymes not-so-great also :)
2006..was a really different year.. so let me sum it up a little.. first da bad things.. so dat v finish them off early..
1> it started wit my FAVORITE cousin's marriage.. um not sayin her marriage was bad.. but her goin away was sad :( #is it me or did dat actually rhyme#
2>i studied hardly durin da whole year.. ;).. #er.. dats bad?? isnt it? :P#
3> i found out dat i hardly hav netym for damage control #lol..#
4> i cant think of nethin else

now for da gud things..

1> my cousin GOT married!!! yay!!! heheh..#i kno this features twice but this is a very important highlite of da year!!!! i luved her wedding n had an absolute blast !! yay !!!#
2> i passed 11th #dats a very gud thing,I had a hunch I’d not make it..lol..#

3> my another cousin got married!! Yay !!! #belive me, half of da year went in preparin for n attendin these two weddings#
4> v had one hell of a tym in college(!!!).. #dint attend much though#
5> I made manyyyyy new frens :)
6> I rediscovered my frenship wit SM.. hehe.. I was frens wit her but now she’s one of my best frens.. cant imagine life witout her.. *sob sob*
7> I think my frenship wit AG improved..*wicked grin*
8> Me n TT hav bcom inseparable now..hehehe.. so wher she goes or I go after 12th.. v’ll b in touch wit each other’s lives no matter wat #....#
9> I started bloggin # :P wipe dat smirk outta ur face rite now!!!!! #
10> I got my new PC #my first one..yes it’s a sexy black gadget wit a LCD screen..haha.. cant stop boastin bout it#
11> I got my new phone #dun ask me details..heheheh :P #
12>My Leo Fren n me wer very much in touch this yer :)
13>My sagi Bro got into IIT.. #its nothin to do wit me..but it was a really nice thing#
14>I ‘found’ Psi.. lol.. #ha! So u thought I wont mention him eh, abhudi?#
15>I had a greattt birthday
16>My mom recovered quite a lot from her illness # yay!! #
17> I turned SEVENTEEN.. aww..its feels so nice.. *blushes* #er.. it’s a total coincidence dat its da seventeenth point..belive me.. I only jus noticed..hehhehe#
18>Now I hav a great music collection thanks to SM, my piscean sis n da store-guy on da next street..heheheh.. thank u folks..i owe u’al a lot.
19>Yes, I was clicked!! #read my whole blog,wil ya?#
20> I got my lenses made.. ah.. they feel lik heaven
21>OK. Enof ya..i cant strain ma brains so much..
So,all in all.. twas a great year.. n hope 2007 brings double of wat this year did.. heheh

Merry christmas to all n Happy New Year’07!!!!!